A Rotted Tome

[Malorii]

The words are sprawled quickly in a violet ink.


small eggs.

gallons of milk
packets of mild spices
Sugar

Teddy bears 12.

things of flour - Don't forget.
Package from leibowitz.

Grain from Western plague lands, Stratholme.

[Malorii]

A brake through!

Nice golden brown, baked 350d not to higher or lower... gets gooey in the middle if lower Delicious aroma.. feeds 12 .

find new fire mage. More grain from Stratholme

Find dress, Sing for them call them out.
You can't make it without killing a few people.

A picture of a well defined monster cookie giving chase to frightened villagers is idly sprawled in the corner, the massive cookie is drawn smashing buildings and eating stray villagers.


Sic gorgiamos allos subjectos nunc.


Feed Number 29

[Malorii]

This is going, well rather well.. Save for the third firemage.
I think this reminds me of the time i killed my husband.

Teddy bears with scarlet ribbons. I have them nice and wrapped up waiting at the location we used to share. It's really something to get that intimate with someone watching the hurt in his eyes, for a man though he sure bled like a little girl. I was disappointed but most men leave me feeling that way. A sacrifice for the good Docter.
Saint Leibowitz he shall make us all well. May he accept the coming sacrifices and bless us with his gifts of enlightenment.


The shepherd tends to the flock. The ashen age comes one step closer. Only a few more days .. few more.

[Malorii]

I'm going to be a mother, And start the ashen age with a new breed of perfection. I hope the cookies take.. mmmm The ashen age being ushered in by a plate of delicious home baked treats. Ironic?


mmmm... Marie is yelling at me.

"Oh god their just children you can't expect this to really come into fruitation can you!? "

she yelled just like that. But i figure this is a way to give those children a second chance to make them better.. after all this world threw them away, and wouldn't it be the Humane and proper thing to show them that they are needed for bigger things?

Marie says things.. I can't really hear her anymore she's gotten so muffled. Poor marie and her apple tree. Ave Maria.


The days come quicker hopefully this batch will work. I wouldn't expect nor be expected to go soft on them just becuse their children. Trails of fire is the path of adulthood and the learning process?

fuck .. why can't i remmber my name.

their they're .. can't remmber anything need to speak with the docter back to undercity need more medicine.

[Malorii]

Of course.. This experiment shouldn't be brought up to the R.A.S for further funding until.. fruitation and the projects are submitted for further testing on the field.

Dr.Leibowitz says some things shouldn't be brought up to the R.A.S for funding until more significant proof of prosperity of said projects holds more girth.

[Malorii]

Such a pretty sunfury arcanist i saw today, Such pretty eyes.

I wanted them so i took them.

[Hellista]

((<3 Mal))

[Malorii]

I saw him today HIM, the one that whistled so pretty when he didn't think anyone was watching or listening. He did his patrols from east to west in the nether storm area at location "6"

I don't find anyone attractive unless i want something from them, but i might be wrong on this maybe it's because i just wanted to hear him sing some more? The idea of Liking someone without wanting something from them or vice versa for mutual gain is idiotic. Maybe i DO want something from him subconsciously. Maybe i want his voice.

Oh yes, Stop by Undercity pick up the new medications from leibowitz. Ask about nightmares not working anymore need higher dosage. I haven't seen Marie in the last week or so i wonder why?

[Malorii]

I sang with him and he sang with me, we talked.

He talked about prince, I talked about The Good docter.
He talked about how the prince was going to make everyone well, and i told him he was wrong and that the good docter was going to make everyone well.

He talked about how the docter was crazy, I talked about how the prince was crazy and the docter was going to make him well regardless of if he wanted to be well or not.

We had a fight, he apologized, but i can not forgive such insults aginst the good docter. I wrapped my garrote wire around his neck and told him if he could sing i would let him go.

He didn't sing. I held him down and kissed him he wasn't breathing. I hung his body from the support beams from the mana-reactor, it's amazing how the lower instestine can support weight of a grown male sin'dorei when supported with garrote wire.

He had a pretty tounge so i took it.

[Malorii]

" Failed, batch 12 failed. Alone once more Leibowitz is away offo n bussiness for the R.a.S i'm alone in the lab by myself. Packing my things moving back and fourth staying here for the rest of the week. Can't sleep. The medacine makes me sleepy.. Can't sleep monsters are coming. Marie is crying i can hear her but i do not know. Can't sleep. Batch 12 failed Don't sleep, Don't sleep Five days. The meds make me tired but they don't suppress the monsters, they still seach. "

The ink fades at this point the following words are wrote in a brownish red substance torn into the pages makeing deep imprints.



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The rest of the page is torn off.
Stay awake

[Malorii]

This page is covered with crudely drawn rainbows around the border, they have large smiling faces printed on to the clouds at either side, At the bottom of the page are large flowers. The flowers are drawn eating each other but they look like their enjoying it, large gnashing teeth going after eachothers petals.

In large bold letters next to the poorly drawn unicorn.


" I FUCKING HATE BUNNIE RABBITS."


Theres a long furry ear taped to the upper right hand corner.

[Malorii]

I don't know why i do this, I find myself in the enthralled pace of insomnia retracing steps without realizing it till i have reached my destination.
I walk down the hallways down to the holding cells for the patients the docter is making well, passed dead eye 'd willnus past, past stitched gavin. I think i should feel the stones of the walk way on my bare feet but i do not.
I find myself removing my clothing and putting on the patents cloth sterile gown and laying on the padded bell that is behind the cell door marked "26."

I do not know why i do this, but this is the only spot where i can sleep without the monsters getting to me.

[Malorii]

To do List:


Find Bir.


Medications, 100 Mg of each purple pill

No needles. Makes subject worrisome.


Scalpels, needles, The doctor will not be in but i have done this on many patients that where Sick and i have made them better as well, Now granted i am not nearly as graceful with making people well as Leibowitz is. I must continue to do the doctors work while he is away.


The frontal lobe of the brain controls a number of advanced cognitive functions, as well as motor control. Motor control is located at the rear of the frontal lobe, and is usually unaffected by psychosurgery. The anterior or prefrontal area is involved in impulse control, judgement with everyday life and situations, language, memory, motor function, problem solving, sexual behavior, socialization and spontaneity. Frontal lobes assist in planning, coordinating, controlling and executing behavior. Make an X. This new subject 39 will be induced with large amounts of anaesthetic. 39 has a very low low tolerance of pain, if too much stress is cause on subject. Subject has a higher rate of expiring before procedures can be completed.

Talked to Kever, Ugh that man is an idiot how the fel did he even get into the R.A.S? Little bastard i caught him peeping into one of Leibowitz books.

also Ask for more felweed shipments for,the forced ingestion or injection of psychotropic drugs such as neuroleptic anti psychotics to produce the agonizing condition called akathisia, (eg., phenothiazines (such as perphenazine and chlorpromazine), thioxanthenes (such as flupenthixol and zuclopenthixol) Should the pateint retalitate during said procedure. One time in noticed in one of MY pateintes the docter had me practice on the brain would cause a fight or flight syndrome and the pateint would brake free of the restraints. Most incredibly is the way pain would subdue the paitinet back into "neurosleep."



For He is Saint Leibowitz, Bringer of the ashen age he shall make us well.

[Malorii]

Booze, a delicate weakness. the doctor calls it a mortal weakness. I like monkeys I think i'll keep him.

"deliberately ingesting toxins into the body to alter their state of mind. "

It was kind of fun, I danced and i sang with people, I was smiling i could taste things i was happy. It never lasts for long, I got sidetracked there will only be rest for me when the ashen age comes, when the glorious rebirth of a new era shepherd in by the love of the good doctor. Got a letter from the R.A.S today for leibowitz stating that the intentions of project 9 was not in the best interest of the Dark lady and further funding will be halted, this letter of course coming for a skeptic. Leibowitz has many of those and it's my job to silence the skeptics.

The genius that is the doctor should not be shut out by some dried up fool.



The rest of this page is torn save for a small scrap of torn ink at the bottom.

"They say one of the fallen five rots under tristfal."

[Malorii]

Another sheep comes home to the shepherd, little bo peep has slaughtered her sheep...

yes, an orc.

Seduced him into drinking then coming to undercity Project 9 is cautioning regardless of said skeptic. A pity one of leibowitz benevolent skeptics now finds his days doddering off scrouge from the sickly lands to the east.

Now I wait. My little green skinned sheep will you come out to my pasture of summer grass and autumn lollies?


The Doctors flock grows and i am less alone. But still alone. I want to be a girl, i want to dance and sing and laugh and, not safe thoughts to be thinking. Marie is crying again in the back of my head. She comes out to play when the doctor is away. Walking hand and hand.



Two by Two The doctor comes for you.

[Malorii]

Subject seems easy to anger. Mood swings. Ask about other circumstances if audio/visual.

Ask subject about the docter.

Start new medications.

[Malorii]

Hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide hide . run run run run run run run run run run run run run run RUN.


Cant find me if i stay still enough, don't breathe don't move. Stay still like a good rabbit don't let the boot step on you in the tall grass.



Don't sleep

Hide.

Run.




Sometimes i think i opened the door on purpose. Hungry mouths tearing at my skin, doors won't hold them they can smell your fear. bleeding on my wedding day. I think they ate the maid of honor. I think i let them in on purpose.

They smell your beating heart. Can hear the blood in your veins.

Hungry tearing hands. Smell of rotting flesh. I can't run no where no doors no windows their braking through, The dresser won't hold the door for long. They look so happy. Funny. I wonder if i taste good.

Their teeth tears my skin and muscle like ripping a paper doll apart. funny they eat the finger with the ring on it first. I hope they ate that old bastard first, i hope it was slower then how their eating me.

[Malorii]

I picked up a sword today, my first one.

I don't know if i like it yet. I can't kiss the blood from their wounds like i could with my daggers.

I like being sensual with my kills and my targets.

Kiss the boys and make them cry.

[Malorii]

I like penatrating their skin, I dance around them . I had gotten pinned to a tree today. I could taste my own blood in my mouth, fucking kal'dori male it was a warrior.. but it was too late i had already penatrated him harder then he penatrated me. I pushed forward and arched up. Metal hitting meat. Meat hitting metal.

I twisted it around a little bit, his eyes stopped glowing.


I'm getting used to swords, I'll give it a month. There are somethings i miss about my daggers.

Holding their head down. My knee on their throat my dagger pushing past tounge and molars going down moist throat.


I love watching them bleed.

[Malorii]

I hate trolls!


I took a young one from den'jin village with the promise of peace bloom, Trying to make trolls better with their regernation abilites is so hard.. still we need samples and i must do as the doctor asks.

I never knew that part of a troll could grow back so quickly after being ripped off.


Although.. If we could find a way to use the troll blood and take out the dynamic remassing portion. It would make the Doctors abomonations so much stronger. There have been some instances with the ghouls in scholomance of reanamation. Need to go there again sometime.

[Malorii]

I Lost so much blood last night I am so Dizzy.

gone through an entire stack of netherweave bandages and the blood has become sticky jelly clinging between the bandages and the wound.

I have no choice, I have to sleep tonight. Can not stay awake.

[Broxigan]

(( -cackles.- ))

[Malorii]

(( shuddap! D: 0cackle- >.< ))

[Malorii]

I'm not allowed to eat any fruit, no apples are the most important.

I Had a dream amrie and I walked hand in hand through an orchard of bright red and green apples, she told ne to try one but everytime i tried to grab at one it wouldn't be there or it would rott in my hands. I hate dreaming.

[Malorii]

"They deem him their worst enemy who tells them the truth. "

I can not really remember who said that, in one of the many books that leibowitz gave me, Of old kings and gods long since forgotten, Books of dust and filled with twilight where not even spiders dare to dance across their pages. Tomes of Lost lore that speak of false prophets and devils, of blood and battles long past. Wars that have long been naught spoken on the tounges of a thousand men.

I could bury myself in books and loose my mind in them, snuggled deep inside my mind a book note or a fated note on page "49" of chapter 12.

So bleak and black and dark and damp is the mind of men, and so wicked and false and damned is the things that crawl in the hearts of men.
It is men who give sins for the woman to carry, some woman carry mans burden in our wombs which have long become barren as the plains in tanaris.

Am i sin? Am i an infection to darken and twist the minds of men, such as those whom have twisted the minds and the souls of those who have come before them. Like many sailors lost in the heat of battle after peace time has been called.

Sometimes when he thinks i am a sleep i think i can hear him singing but perhaps it is my mind playing tricks on me, Words spun across spoken on dust and evening falls. It reminds me of the noise the wood beetles eat as they desecrate coffins with their hungry moouths. To lay their eggs of maggots in rotted flesh, the kind of flesh that stays rotted. The kind of flesh that does not walk again searching for fresh flesh and warm blood.

I can hear him singing to me in the back of my mind or in the back of his, I'm not sure where i am. Which is up which is down.

Why be sweet, why be careful, why be kind?
A man has only one thing on his mind
Why ask politely, why go lightly, why say please?
They only want to get you on their knees
There are a few things I never could believe
A woman when she weeps
A merchant when he swears
A thief who says he'll pay
A lawyer when he cares
A snake when he is sleeping
A drunkard when he prays
I don't believe you go to heaven when you're good
Everything goes to hell, anyway...
Laissez-faire mi amour, se la vie
Shall I return to shore or swim back out to sea?
The world don't care what a soldier does in town
It's all hanging in the windows by the pound
There are a few things I never could believe...
Everything Goes to Hell anyway.

I only want to hear you purr and to hear you moan
There is another man who brings the money home
I don't want dishes in the sink
Please don't tell me what you feel or what you think
There are few things I never could believe...


Everything Goes to Hell anyway


((lyrics by tom waits been listening to him all night. http://youtube.com/watch?v=T8oDOc05ZHE might not be sfw))

[Malorii]

I like putting the leeches into peoples ears, I wonder if its how looseing ones virginity feels. Having your ear drum blown apart by a squirning brain hungry leech.

[Malorii]

One pill for me. The Black one. Just in case of emerangies he said.

This is an emergancy i'll save the pill for later.


I torched the lab tonight, how could he have found out.. I was sure i was alone and cloaked in shadows when i went to visit the lab to feed the pateints and to make them well.
I sent a message to leibowitz, thankfully we have two more locations.

Project Rebirth- Terminated.

Project Azahara- Terminated.

I torched the lab and introducted the last remaning pateints to euthenasia. All the reseach papers I took down to memory and i will store them until i can transcribe them later.Things cats know to make them scream at night, old kings. Medicine journals, diagrams. Everything i burned it all. Everything in ash i left everything in ashes.

Nothing is left save for bones left over abonation stichings. I even let the scrouge in to make it look good and properly destroyed.

The doctor is not going to be pleased with me, I anticapate pain and quick repermanding of my mistakes. My dearest dotor my sweet Saint Leibowitz.

Moving to location two. Perhaps i should set up a dummy location as well just in case.

I had to burn some of my children. Cuddles and his family.

I'll bring the pill with me find out how much more is known, If to much I'll take it and erase my mind as to not let any stray information out.

A nice coma flower inside my head, Marie will be gone I will be gone but the doctor and his glorious work will be safe.

[Malorii]

I took a blanket thuogh from cell 26 and wrapped it around my shoulders to keep warm after the fires had died down and the ghouls from the plague lands had devoured any of the left over flesh from the charred corpses.

I don't know why i'm so bent over who was in cell 26. The doctor says i shouldn't think too much of it so i won't. I should have brought marshmellows.

[Malorii]

Malorii is busy sitting on the old ironwood tables holding the tome over a burner, watching the pages flicker brightly before cascading into an ashen rainbow.

"Good by my tome you are too dangrous now."

[Qabian]

((Nuu! She'll start a new one, right?))

[Malorii]

(( perhaps perhaps not MUAHAHAHAHAH!!! I think though i'm going to wait for the new journal to find her. ))