From the Darkness

[Malakim]

To live behind the eyes of another person another soul is not an easy life, it is not one that many people could deal with and I like them had not been the best of company for my other half. I have caused pain to all kinds of beings, I have hurt my brother for no other reason than he is stronger than me. I have commanded power beyond the fathom of the masses and still he had beaten me at every turn.

Then the most amazingly stupid thing happened, he defended me, he fought out against torture and pain, because he claimed it was the right thing to do. It was somehow right for him to take pain for me because of some foolish sense of morals he has. I would never think someone would fight so hard for someone that had caused them nothing but pain their whole life.

Maybe this means there is more to living than having power and fear, for the first time in my life I am confused, perhaps the shadows don't contain the power that I desire. Maybe it doesn't exist in demons, maybe there is something else in life you have to live for, perhaps he has it right and you have to live for someone else before you can find peace and happiness, but that brings up an interesting question... Who do I live for?

[Malakim]

There was a gathering the other day, a lot of souls, a lot of conversations. However, among those my brother engaged in a particular one that caught my ears. It was a conversation that spoke of darkness and light, and them having to work in harmony in order to keep everything in balance and order.

I think there might be some truth behind all this, I have felt a lot happier since being back, imagine that me happy...

The other thing that was brought to my attention was how that as the light gets stronger so too does the darkness. If this is true, how was my brother able to defeat me each time he felt he had to. Shouldn't we be of equal power? Then how come he was always on top? Perhaps this story is just that a story and nothing else, or perhaps there is something more in me I just have to find.