Malakim
07-15-2007, 03:07 PM
It seems I have once again come out on top, I am alive and getting better everyday. Something bothers me though, how long can I keep on succeeding, how long is it possible for me to fight on and come out in the lead? In this moment everything is calm and perfect, but what will happen in the next?
I am truly afraid that perhaps in the near future I may not have the strength to win, what happens when I fail. I know that I am strong enough for most challenges. Yet, I cannot help but fear that perhaps sometime I will not be able to run fast enough or have the strength to do all I must fast enough.
I know this is self defeating and that these pattern of thought is not helpful in the least to anything I wish to accomplish in life. After all that has happened I cannot help but think I may not be strong enough to accomplish everything I may need to.
I know that I will always do what I have to, I will as always give everything. I just really hope that my spirit will be strong enough to keep my body strong enough for whatever challenges are presented before me. I am just for the first time afraid that maybe that's not enough...
I am truly afraid that perhaps in the near future I may not have the strength to win, what happens when I fail. I know that I am strong enough for most challenges. Yet, I cannot help but fear that perhaps sometime I will not be able to run fast enough or have the strength to do all I must fast enough.
I know this is self defeating and that these pattern of thought is not helpful in the least to anything I wish to accomplish in life. After all that has happened I cannot help but think I may not be strong enough to accomplish everything I may need to.
I know that I will always do what I have to, I will as always give everything. I just really hope that my spirit will be strong enough to keep my body strong enough for whatever challenges are presented before me. I am just for the first time afraid that maybe that's not enough...