Itakae
06-30-2007, 01:40 AM
*A torn journal page is found lying in the dirt near the edge of the path leading into Halaa. The words are smeared slightly, but still legible.*
Something is wrong. My body refuses to regenerate itself, I refuse to use the power of the spirits to heal myself, it's not right. I'm just so tired. I cannot stand to be awake anymore, all I want is to sleep. That's the thing though, being asleep frightens me. What if I can't wake up? What if I just slip off into a dream.. and the dream keeps me. I don't want to go away! I want to live, and be well! I want to protect the innocent, I want to prove myself as a member of Sanctuary.
I don't know what do do anymore. I cannot tell anyone. They cannot know about this. I will take care of myself. I will be fine. Roth'rili has his own problems, he doesn't need to hear mine. He doesn't need to listen to a troll speak of her mortality. My problems are my own. My own.
Maybe it will be for the best if I venture off into the night. The spirits.. the elements, maybe they can help me find myself. Maybe they can fix me. I hope so. I am not old enough to die. Not yet.
Something is wrong. My body refuses to regenerate itself, I refuse to use the power of the spirits to heal myself, it's not right. I'm just so tired. I cannot stand to be awake anymore, all I want is to sleep. That's the thing though, being asleep frightens me. What if I can't wake up? What if I just slip off into a dream.. and the dream keeps me. I don't want to go away! I want to live, and be well! I want to protect the innocent, I want to prove myself as a member of Sanctuary.
I don't know what do do anymore. I cannot tell anyone. They cannot know about this. I will take care of myself. I will be fine. Roth'rili has his own problems, he doesn't need to hear mine. He doesn't need to listen to a troll speak of her mortality. My problems are my own. My own.
Maybe it will be for the best if I venture off into the night. The spirits.. the elements, maybe they can help me find myself. Maybe they can fix me. I hope so. I am not old enough to die. Not yet.