Missing Pieces

[Malakim]

I have walked the world of darkness, I have seen pure evil through it's own eyes. I have fought for happiness and a better tomorrow, I have given as much of myself as I ever thought possible and still I have pressed on.

I had been happy lately, I had everything I ever wanted. I have the love of the first being I have ever cared for, I have wonderful friends in the animals that chose to hang around me. Still a part of me seems lacking.

My strength has been waning everyday, it seems no matter what I do I have been getting weaker and weaker. I wonder if this is how I was supposed to be all along, without him?

Even if I am unable to hold my hands up I will move on, there are a lot of people that depend on me now. A lot that I have to do to make sure they will all be alright before my body completely gives out. I just hope I am strong enough to do all that I have to do.

I think most of all I just miss him... I miss my brother so much.

[Malakim]

What is it that makes a person who they are? How am I to be measured as a troll? I have failed my friends, I have failed my family, but most importantly I have failed myself. It seems as though every time I fail, every time I am not strong enough to press forward, someone else always pays the price. Someone else always takes the pain for me.

I should have died a hundred times over it would seem, from the fights with the Alliance, the Sandfury, and every beast that has ever taken in my scent. Still I live on while so many others are not so fortunate. I envy those that have the strength to lay down their lives for those they love and care about. Those that have passed on from this world with no regrets about the choices they have made.

Maybe that makes me a coward, maybe that makes me a fool. I try so hard to be a better being, I want so much for everything to work out. I want everything to be right and perfect in this world. I want this place to be kind and forgiving, but all that happens is pain and sorrow...

I want to be happy, I want to be happy with this world of mine, I want everything to work out perfectly... Maybe I want too much, maybe I need to do more than want from now on.

I will help this world become better, I will do whatever I can and give all that is left in me to make what I can better. Most of all, I will do whatever it takes, give all of myself to get a new chance... A second chance at making it right.