Brand New Book

[Maegannon]

Dear.. book,

I picked you up today in the shopping district of Lower City. You smell nice, like fresh paper and glue. I've always liked the smell of books, though I've never really felt the urge to write in one before. Maybe I'll remember to write, maybe I wont.

Either way, I may have to send you to the house in Stormwind so Gralin doesn't get his stubby little fingers on you. I love him, but he's nosier then a thee headed gossip queen. Sneakier too.

So I bought you so that I could get this stuff off my chest.. the stuff about the Ran'deau fellow, Skafloc.

Man, is he handsome.. which makes me feel dirty and wrong, because I hate Sin'dorei. I always have. It boggles my mind why It is that I find myself attracted to him. The only explanation that I can come up with is that he's akin to me in alot of different, little ways. Its very clear that he's got a love for the natural critters about the world. I don't know.. he just exudes an aura that to me, says that he perhaps should have been Kaldorei. Perhaps there is close relation to an ancestor of his..

Either way, if any of the boys were to catch wind of my.. strange behavior, I'd surely be hung for treason. They might not be Stormwind's favorites.. but they are fiercely loyal to the alliance. The idea that I was in contact with any member of the horde, especially a Sin'dorei, who betrayed the Alliance.. well.. lets just say I'd cease to be everyone's favorite flower-picking, antler sporting, druid.


I think my worst fear though, is if Gralin were to find out, before I could truly explore what the fuck was going on with myself. The idea of hurting him breaks my heart. The old coot is my everything, and I love him with every fiber of my being.. I've no intention of breaking my vows to him..

I just.. I just need to find out what it is that has me pausing and thinking of a Blood Elf. I need to find out why he's so special. If I don't, I think it will kill me.

Damn you, cats curiosity!

[Maegannon]

Gralin is acting so weird. Something is wrong with him, I'm sure of it. He was so feistey just last week, and now he's wandering around, tired and mopey.. I'm really worried.

Its almost kind of like he's sick, but not really, because there's no sneezes or coughs.. I mean, he wont even drink. I'm really worried.

He's so pale all the time, just sort of sits there, none of the dishes are done (and I hate doing dishes!) and the appartment is starting to smell like week old food. I'm really worried.

We had steak for dinner last night. He loves steak, loves it more then I do, and I love me some steak!(don't tell my old tauren trainers!) He just refused to eat. He looked down at his plate, pushed it away, and went to bed. I'm really worried.

He stayed in bed all day today, with the covers pulled up around his chin. Heidenreich came by for their afternoon ale, and.. he just rolled over and grunted, said he was tired. Heidenreich is really worried, so am I.

I'm tempted to have Tra come over and take a look at him. She always cheers him up, and she's one heck of a healer when she wants to be. He always said that if he could, he would adopt her as his sister. I mentioned that I may be invinting her over to visit for dinner tonight. He just grunted and pulled the covers over his head. I'm really, really worried.

I feel responsable. Is it my fault? Does he think I've stopped loving him? I haven't spent enough time at home with him. I spend to much time wandering around the worlds and playing with the Legion boys.. Maybe I should stay home today.

I wish I could get in contact with Lovely....or Val.. I need someone to vent to.

[Maegannon]

I MET HIM!

Ohmygoodness I met him.

I talked with him. He's so .. noble.. and yet he's definitely not. His aura startles me, because its full of hurt and love and nature and ..

He's so cute.

What the hell am I going to do now?

His voice still rings in my ears, and my antlers still fucking tingle where he touched them to untangle my hair. Stupid Antlers!

Why do I have to be so tall? I hate being tall, everyone is shorter then me.

Well, Angels isn't shorter then me, but she's got hooves, so she wins out, because at least these stupid antlers would fit her better.

Maybe if I kneel, no one will notice how tall I am. Maybe I need a drink, too.. I think I'm going insane.

Elune, why do you do these things to me? What am I supposed to do now? I can't just leave it.. him.. alone anymore.

Gralin's going to kill me. I think Destructive and Abusive might as well. I don't even wanna imagine what Cid might do..

Cid scares the hell out of me.

[Maegannon]

I got a letter from Lovely. Well, I've gotten a few, but one was special, hand delivered to me by a nervous looking little blood elf in a butlers tux. If the situation hadn't been so serious, I probably would have giggled at the sight.

Anyway, the letter basically says.. that I should hunt him. Him.. mm. Sorry, mind wandered there for a moment. Yes, the letter was short, said I should hunt, and that if I catch my prey, I could.. well I can't even write it, I'm just to embarrassed for even thinking it.

My mind keeps arguing. Its a strange feeling, having your thoughts argue with one another. The only time I've ever experienced it, was when I was possessed, and that was less about me arguing with myself, and more about me arguing with the thing living inside me. I think I'm losing my mind. I told Lovely so, she just thinks I need to have my new experience that I'm longing for.

Either way, my mental state is affecting everyone around me. I don't know how obvious it may seem, but Gralin, even my guild members, keep looking at me differently, like I've already done the forbidden thing, and they've already judged me.

I'm deffinately loosing my mind. I need to go for a walk. Will write more later.